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I was somewhat relieved when hubby finally left for Iraq, simply because I felt like I was far beyond ready to get this deployment over with. Somehow with him finally out of the country meant that it was going to be over with much sooner.
What I wasn’t banking on was the chronic fear that would kick in when he was actually overseas. This is a subject that many don’t believe in and it is quite difficult to explain, so please bare with me as I attempt to tell you the events that unfolded during this deployment. I am warning you ahead of time that it may make you feel uncomfortable depending upon your own experiences and beliefs.
Before hubby left for Iraq I struggled a little with being able to sleep without him next to me, but it wasn’t anything I couldn’t get used to. I learned very quickly that I could not afford to watch any scary movies because I would inevitably end up too scared to sleep at night. I never imagined that watching a Dr. Phill show with a Psychic would change my situation completely and cause my fear to become one of someone with PTSD. But that’s exactly what happened.
That very night I ended up with the most bizarre circumstances, the inability to sleep, nightmares…this went on for months! Many times I got down on my knees to pray and I could feel someone breathing down my neck, yet there would be no one there when turned around. My daughter also showed signs of fear and struggled with sleeping as I did. I also began to think of hurting my daughter, where as previously I never thought such thoughts. Many doctors said it was Postpartum depression, but I was already being treated for it and it wasn’t doing anything.
At first I thought it was all in my head, but then a new thing happened: Since it was in the middle of spring and things were getting a bit hot I had the attic fan on and without reason it shut off. There was no one else in the house so I knew it either died on its own or some strange “power” had turned it off. I looked it over to see if it was broken, but there was nothing wrong with it. When I played with the switch it simply would not turn on. I walked away to think about it for a while and when I walked back to it I somehow knew it would turn back on…and it did.
Scared to death I realized that something very strange was happening that I didn’t understand and was more than just my own brain malfunctioning. So I called my Aunt who I highly respect and has always been my spiritual mother. Sobbing I explained to her all the strange activities going on and that I was dealing with chronic fear. I really did believe that my life was in danger.
While I was talking to her the phone went dead, the TV turned to static, and the lights began to flicker and go out. I had heard of such things happening to other people dealing with some kind of demonic force in their house, but I had never believed it to be true. AT THAT POINT ON I WAS A BELIEVER!!! Absolutely freaked out I ran from the house to get some fresh air and clear my head.
A few minutes later I called my Aunt back. To my surprise she was not surprised with what had just happened and she calmly said that she had a book she was going to send to me that she wanted me to read. Desperate for anything that might help me I consented to read it and waited impatiently for it to arrive.
A few days later it did arrive and I devoured it in less than 3 days. It was called From Darkness to Light: Demonic Oppression and the Christian:
I learned of my authority over demons that I recieved as soon as I claimed Yeshua Hamashiach (Jesus Christ) as my Lord and Savior and that I was given the power to tell them to leave me alone (among other things that needed to be done). If you’re dealing with many of the same problems I had then I highly recommend this book. I don’t really recommend talking to your pastor because he may not believe in demons (which is pretty silly, if you ask me). This book was not only very helpful, but it was in line with the word, and it worked!
One thing it didn’t explain was how I managed to draw a demon into my home. I learned years later that it had something to do with necromancing the devil, which is why I started having problems after watching the psychic on the Dr. Phill show.
Anyone else experience something like this? Or did you simply have trouble sleeping? Would love to hear.
Stay tuned tomorrow to find out about the rest of my move back to Texas.
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